emotions

Tell me what is this that I am feeling
Is this love really real?
Am I trapped in a world of insanity?
Where all my dreams seem so real
What is it that I am doing?
Am I making the right move?
Is it because you love me so
That makes me want to drool
How can I describe these feelings?
The ones that I have for you
Should I scribble them on a paper?
Or write them in a book you choose
Should I take a stroll along the beach?
Mesmerizing what love you can bring
That can have me dumb founded
More than you can believe
Skipping across the sand
And running through the trees
Taking a piece of glass
And carving our names in the bark of trees
Leaving nothing but our initials as memories
Then hoping on a boat to go to a cay
Where we would lay on the beach ever so romantically
As you fall softly in my arms
While we lay in the pink sand
And the water washes up between us
Getting us wet while we take a stand
To press our lips upon each other
There is no one around no need for a cover
As I take my hands upon your body
And move it up and down while I caress you softly
You start to whisper in my ear
Girl you are making me weak
We lay there with such emotion
As we become one with such explosion
You start to look into my eyes
With a very deep but soft gaze
My skin begins to touch yours
And we both feel each other’s flames
You start to kiss me again
With those wet lips of yours
As our tongues act like the discovery and begin to explore
We feed on each other’s passion
And we are both amazed
Feeling our bloods boils but there is no time to get afraid
We send out shocking emotions
As we begin to stimulate pure intoxication
And your hands begin to move all over me
Caressing up my body as if you were on heat
Placing your hands up on every part of me
It’s like my legs have a sensor
And open up automatically
And I begin to lift you up
To take you for a ride
Letting you know that I will be your tour guide
As we begin to explore our human nature
Filled with the passion and desire
Nothing can disturb us
For we are locked into each other both mentally and physically
Then you begin to feel me deep inside
You cannot resist there are feelings you cant hide
At the same time I nibble and you begin to get wet
And all of a sudden I realize we are dripping in sweat
You moan you cry you grab I fight
It’s like a fire is lit up inside your being
And you are slippery everywhere but you start to scream
Harder and harder you scream out my name
Come on you tell me this is not a game
Crying out in anguished bliss
You grasp for air
Then you catch yourself and grab your hair
You begin to look at me again with those eyes
A feeling of relief from deep inside
I can see in your eyes your senses had rised
As I watched you look like you were grabbing for the sky
I took you higher and higher than you could have ever been
Now you lay here softly cuddling
Waiting to do it again.

The One

From the moment I saw you
And I saw that twinkle of light glowing in your eye
There was something about you
That made me knew that I had to have you
Tell me what you are doing with the rest of your life
Do you plan to be lonely and full of strife
I want to make you happy and treat you right
To look at your face every morning and night
You see I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when you walked into my life
It was a feeling I didn’t want to bend
You helped me to get past bad memories
You know the ones that made me cry
And giving me that mushy feeling
That I could give love another try
I think that I am falling for you
And I don’t want to let you go
I believe I am loving you more than anyone before
So I just had to let you know
Love has a funny feeling
One that you cannot explain
It’s is a part of life
And should not be taken for a game
You see people’s feelings are involved
And I know what it means to get hurt
Can give you an ugly feeling
And have you like an ostrich sticking your head in the dirt
It’s seeps into our hearts
And drives into our brains
Leave our bones feeling weak
And mind going insane
Makes you think of that special someone
That will never leave your mind
The one you give you r heart to
Who will never leave your side
I call her my virtuous women
The one who I adore
The one I want to spend the rest of my life with
And close all other open doors
don't know what else to say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I will never stop loving you

Cheated

I know I did wrong
Now it’s time to let me go
I didn’t have a good reason to do it
But I know I hit you very low
I admit that I cheated
And I have shattered all your dreams
But no matter how hard I try to fix this
The harder this is going to be
This is going to hurt a lot
And a lot of tears are going to be shed
And you are going to spend many nights crying
And wetting that pillow on your bed
See most men are ashamed to do this
Or don’t have the balls to approach you with this
But I love you too much to keep you believing
That I have given my heart, mind, body and soul
To only share with you
See your friends give you a hint
And you thought that they were lying
For in your heart you can’t live without me
For what would be your reason for living
I cheated love and now you know it
You now can’t ignore it
Because I told you
Time to face the truth now
And stop pretending like it’s a dream
Right now I am confused
And really don’t know what to do
Should I sit and tell you that I am sorry
Or sorry just won’t do
Should I tell you that I will never do it again
And that I really really love you
Or open up my heart
And try to make up all my lies to you
Don’t get me wrong my love
I can imagine just what you are going through
Or what going through that mind of yours while you ponder on what to do
You probably want to go sit in your room
Because right now you don’t know what to do
And cry your heart out thinking why me did he have to do this to
There is a mirror across your bed and you are looking in it
Thinking deeply where did you go wrong
Why did I have to do it?
I know what I did was wrong and I really didn’t have to do it
But if you see this beauty that I was with if you were me you would have done it
I am going to be real with you
As I start to walk away
Please read carefully what I am about to say
I did wrong so sue me
And I know you can’t get me out of your mind easily
I know you thought that our love was strong
And right now you believe that we can move on
But baby why should I lie
How does what I am telling you make you feel inside
Open your eyes my love what we had is gone
And its not going to come back
I am through with this relationship
But I am still in love with you
What we had in this world is finished
And I want nothing more than to be friends with you
I cheated and I admit it
But right now my love I want you to forgive me to
The time is yours my love
Now it’s all up to you
If you need me you know how to find me
But just know in your heart
That I still love you

A Good Woman

Some people say a good woman is hard to find
But I dare to differ for her true qualities is one of a kind
She is a woman that you should cherish and not have a value on
One that you can wake up with at the break of each dawn
She is that gleaming light in my eye
And one of the main reasons why I live
She is all that a man could wish for
And to her my heart I would give
This woman you should appreciate the commitment she has given to you
And not ever to take for granted all the things she has given up for you
A good woman does not live in fear of her future because of her past
But rather understands them as an experience in life for which she has grasped
A good woman is someone who is virtuous in the traditional sense of our patriarchy
She is thoughtful, gentle and kind and always ready and willing to listen to what is on our mind
A woman who loves her children and will do without so they can have what they need
A good woman can be your eyes when you are unable to see
Be that voice for you also when you are not able to speak
She is the wind beneath your wing believing in you when nobody else does
Knowing that she is committed and that you have perseverance to succeed against the odds
She is woman who shows what the 3 d’s she has for you
By being determined, dedicated and dependable showing you what a good woman can do
A good woman will let you know that for you she is always there
And will never leave your heart or create any fear
She is one to give me her heart and ask me to give her mine
And hope that I will always love her until the end of time

A Good Man

Not all men are dogs
Trust me I know what I am saying
I am living proof to what I believe in
Let me explain to you women that can’t see
What a good man should really be

That guy should be smart
But he doesn’t have to be clean
One that keeps his word
And sticks to what he means

His thoughts are gentle and no selfishness in his eye
Ready to give you the shirt off his back
Even if the rain was falling from the sky

When it comes to his family
You know he will provide
And protect them like a father should
And keeps integrity by his side

His woman would never have to worry
If her man has gone astray
Cause this is a good man
And in her arms is the only place he lays

This man knows when he has
A good woman by his side
For she follows him close
Like a kid hopping down a candy aisle
And he will never give up
The opportunity to have her by his side

He always wears a smile
Even when he had a bad day
For the words that come out of his mouth
Will always be kind gestures you will hear him say

He doesn’t have a big ego
Nor believes in showing off
For everything about him
Should show what he is made of

He loves his wife like a mother
And cares for her like no other
The thoughtful things he do
Really shows that he cares for you
Whatever brings a smile to your face
Or makes the world a happier place
Just goes to show the love he shares
For all the love ones around him that really care

This good guy would please you
In all ways that you should
From the top of your head
All the way down to your toes

A good guy would sit you down
And rub those feet of yours after a long day
And makes sure his boys know
That they have to go their way
You are his woman
And they can’t get in the way

A good guy would be more than just your man
But your lover your brother your confidant and your best friend
Trust me this guy has passion
And would hate to see you cry
He will hold you in his arms
And wipe those tears dry

You may feel this is a dream
And this can’t be reality
For you can’t find this man
Inside of your society

But he is out there trust me
I know what I mean
Even though everything you see
Doesn’t look good as it seems
Just have faith and wait patiently
God will send him in a dream

The Bottle

I got dressed one evening with a bunch of thoughts in my head
What in the world should I do I was getting very scared
I jumped in the car with the bat by my side
And on the run I went for juice and then off to get high

What should I do and how should I stop these feelings
The more I thought about it
The more I felt like drinking

You can’t imagine all that I am going through
Why I am screwed up in the head
And how therapy won’t do

Why I go to bed every night thinking the
Next morning they will find me dead
By some drug overdose
Or a gunshot to my head

Can you ever dream about what I am going to do?
About the women problems that I am going through
Or how my family can’t get to agreeing
Or all the school work that I have that has me
Up late at night screaming
Not to forget all the bills I have to pay
Tell me why on earth I should ever think that I should stay

Only thing to do now is get drunk by the hour
Hoping that I would fall asleep after I had a nice shower
Or get some ice and go in my room and meditate
And just hope that this night hurries and turns to a new day

But here I am on this road driving
With this bottle to my head without the juice
I already feel like dying
Thinking about who to call to tell them that I love them
But I am on my second 40 now this 151 is how I am living

All of a sudden it happened and then I felt like I had stop breathing
See my vision had gotten blurry and a strong tension I was feeling
As I grasped for breath with glass over my face
I had not seen the red light that I had passed by mistake
And this big truck came out and hit me
Flung me through the windshield like torpedo speeding

Family and friends flashed through my mind
And I couldn’t stop thinking
As my heart beat slower and my body grew weak
Who would have thought that it was time to go sleep
My neck had broken and all of my bones had cracked
If it weren’t for my car they could not identify me
For my face was so smashed
I didn’t mean to drink so much
But what was I to do
When you are in so much pain
There aren’t too many options for you

As I layed down in the road trying looking at my car ahead
I saw that brown bottle rolling past my head
Why did I do it did I really have to drink
But even if I did why didn’t I do it in moderation do you think?
As I glanced at the light a tear ran down my head
And at quarter to twelve I was pronounced DEAD..

Forget You

One of these mornings I am going to wake up
And wonder if your eyes were black or blue
Or even ponder in my head
If I can really live without having you

See I thought that it would be easy
For me to just forget about you
Never remembering your scent
Or a memory of ever dreaming about you

You thought that it would be easy
To just get up and cheat on me
Never once thinking about
What you were really doing to me

The sneaking around you did while you were cheating
Not even thinking if I were really noticing
The way you crept around as if I were dumb
While you did your stuff secretively
Thinking that I had never knew or if I did that I would say
But what difference would it matter to you anyway

See I have fallen to deep or so you thought
That no matter what you did
I would come back crawling like some little child
Begging for you to let me in

The memories of you cheating stuck in my head like a knife
Until felt like I was about to lose my life
I waited too long to deal with the issues
Now somebody’s here passing me a tissue
For I can’t stop all the tears from flowing out my head
I might as well lie in a coffin as if I were dead

All of my words are gone
And I don’t know what to do
My emotions are all running around
Like wild animals in a zoo

All these thoughts are racing about you and I
As I sit here looking up the sky as if I were about to die
But it doesn’t matter anymore and I can’t think of one good reason
To take you back in my life not now or in any other season
Just going to take this one step at a time
And forget that I know you as I speak my last rhyme