Wednesday, August 25, 2010

emotions

Tell me what is this that I am feeling
Is this love really real?
Am I trapped in a world of insanity?
Where all my dreams seem so real
What is it that I am doing?
Am I making the right move?
Is it because you love me so
That makes me want to drool
How can I describe these feelings?
The ones that I have for you
Should I scribble them on a paper?
Or write them in a book you choose
Should I take a stroll along the beach?
Mesmerizing what love you can bring
That can have me dumb founded
More than you can believe
Skipping across the sand
And running through the trees
Taking a piece of glass
And carving our names in the bark of trees
Leaving nothing but our initials as memories
Then hoping on a boat to go to a cay
Where we would lay on the beach ever so romantically
As you fall softly in my arms
While we lay in the pink sand
And the water washes up between us
Getting us wet while we take a stand
To press our lips upon each other
There is no one around no need for a cover
As I take my hands upon your body
And move it up and down while I caress you softly
You start to whisper in my ear
Girl you are making me weak
We lay there with such emotion
As we become one with such explosion
You start to look into my eyes
With a very deep but soft gaze
My skin begins to touch yours
And we both feel each other’s flames
You start to kiss me again
With those wet lips of yours
As our tongues act like the discovery and begin to explore
We feed on each other’s passion
And we are both amazed
Feeling our bloods boils but there is no time to get afraid
We send out shocking emotions
As we begin to stimulate pure intoxication
And your hands begin to move all over me
Caressing up my body as if you were on heat
Placing your hands up on every part of me
It’s like my legs have a sensor
And open up automatically
And I begin to lift you up
To take you for a ride
Letting you know that I will be your tour guide
As we begin to explore our human nature
Filled with the passion and desire
Nothing can disturb us
For we are locked into each other both mentally and physically
Then you begin to feel me deep inside
You cannot resist there are feelings you cant hide
At the same time I nibble and you begin to get wet
And all of a sudden I realize we are dripping in sweat
You moan you cry you grab I fight
It’s like a fire is lit up inside your being
And you are slippery everywhere but you start to scream
Harder and harder you scream out my name
Come on you tell me this is not a game
Crying out in anguished bliss
You grasp for air
Then you catch yourself and grab your hair
You begin to look at me again with those eyes
A feeling of relief from deep inside
I can see in your eyes your senses had rised
As I watched you look like you were grabbing for the sky
I took you higher and higher than you could have ever been
Now you lay here softly cuddling
Waiting to do it again.

The One

From the moment I saw you
And I saw that twinkle of light glowing in your eye
There was something about you
That made me knew that I had to have you
Tell me what you are doing with the rest of your life
Do you plan to be lonely and full of strife
I want to make you happy and treat you right
To look at your face every morning and night
You see I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when you walked into my life
It was a feeling I didn’t want to bend
You helped me to get past bad memories
You know the ones that made me cry
And giving me that mushy feeling
That I could give love another try
I think that I am falling for you
And I don’t want to let you go
I believe I am loving you more than anyone before
So I just had to let you know
Love has a funny feeling
One that you cannot explain
It’s is a part of life
And should not be taken for a game
You see people’s feelings are involved
And I know what it means to get hurt
Can give you an ugly feeling
And have you like an ostrich sticking your head in the dirt
It’s seeps into our hearts
And drives into our brains
Leave our bones feeling weak
And mind going insane
Makes you think of that special someone
That will never leave your mind
The one you give you r heart to
Who will never leave your side
I call her my virtuous women
The one who I adore
The one I want to spend the rest of my life with
And close all other open doors
don't know what else to say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I will never stop loving you

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Cheated

I know I did wrong
Now it’s time to let me go
I didn’t have a good reason to do it
But I know I hit you very low
I admit that I cheated
And I have shattered all your dreams
But no matter how hard I try to fix this
The harder this is going to be
This is going to hurt a lot
And a lot of tears are going to be shed
And you are going to spend many nights crying
And wetting that pillow on your bed
See most men are ashamed to do this
Or don’t have the balls to approach you with this
But I love you too much to keep you believing
That I have given my heart, mind, body and soul
To only share with you
See your friends give you a hint
And you thought that they were lying
For in your heart you can’t live without me
For what would be your reason for living
I cheated love and now you know it
You now can’t ignore it
Because I told you
Time to face the truth now
And stop pretending like it’s a dream
Right now I am confused
And really don’t know what to do
Should I sit and tell you that I am sorry
Or sorry just won’t do
Should I tell you that I will never do it again
And that I really really love you
Or open up my heart
And try to make up all my lies to you
Don’t get me wrong my love
I can imagine just what you are going through
Or what going through that mind of yours while you ponder on what to do
You probably want to go sit in your room
Because right now you don’t know what to do
And cry your heart out thinking why me did he have to do this to
There is a mirror across your bed and you are looking in it
Thinking deeply where did you go wrong
Why did I have to do it?
I know what I did was wrong and I really didn’t have to do it
But if you see this beauty that I was with if you were me you would have done it
I am going to be real with you
As I start to walk away
Please read carefully what I am about to say
I did wrong so sue me
And I know you can’t get me out of your mind easily
I know you thought that our love was strong
And right now you believe that we can move on
But baby why should I lie
How does what I am telling you make you feel inside
Open your eyes my love what we had is gone
And its not going to come back
I am through with this relationship
But I am still in love with you
What we had in this world is finished
And I want nothing more than to be friends with you
I cheated and I admit it
But right now my love I want you to forgive me to
The time is yours my love
Now it’s all up to you
If you need me you know how to find me
But just know in your heart
That I still love you

Sunday, February 21, 2010

A Good Woman

Some people say a good woman is hard to find
But I dare to differ for her true qualities is one of a kind
She is a woman that you should cherish and not have a value on
One that you can wake up with at the break of each dawn
She is that gleaming light in my eye
And one of the main reasons why I live
She is all that a man could wish for
And to her my heart I would give
This woman you should appreciate the commitment she has given to you
And not ever to take for granted all the things she has given up for you
A good woman does not live in fear of her future because of her past
But rather understands them as an experience in life for which she has grasped
A good woman is someone who is virtuous in the traditional sense of our patriarchy
She is thoughtful, gentle and kind and always ready and willing to listen to what is on our mind
A woman who loves her children and will do without so they can have what they need
A good woman can be your eyes when you are unable to see
Be that voice for you also when you are not able to speak
She is the wind beneath your wing believing in you when nobody else does
Knowing that she is committed and that you have perseverance to succeed against the odds
She is woman who shows what the 3 d’s she has for you
By being determined, dedicated and dependable showing you what a good woman can do
A good woman will let you know that for you she is always there
And will never leave your heart or create any fear
She is one to give me her heart and ask me to give her mine
And hope that I will always love her until the end of time

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

A Good Man

Not all men are dogs
Trust me I know what I am saying
I am living proof to what I believe in
Let me explain to you women that can’t see
What a good man should really be

That guy should be smart
But he doesn’t have to be clean
One that keeps his word
And sticks to what he means

His thoughts are gentle and no selfishness in his eye
Ready to give you the shirt off his back
Even if the rain was falling from the sky

When it comes to his family
You know he will provide
And protect them like a father should
And keeps integrity by his side

His woman would never have to worry
If her man has gone astray
Cause this is a good man
And in her arms is the only place he lays

This man knows when he has
A good woman by his side
For she follows him close
Like a kid hopping down a candy aisle
And he will never give up
The opportunity to have her by his side

He always wears a smile
Even when he had a bad day
For the words that come out of his mouth
Will always be kind gestures you will hear him say

He doesn’t have a big ego
Nor believes in showing off
For everything about him
Should show what he is made of

He loves his wife like a mother
And cares for her like no other
The thoughtful things he do
Really shows that he cares for you
Whatever brings a smile to your face
Or makes the world a happier place
Just goes to show the love he shares
For all the love ones around him that really care

This good guy would please you
In all ways that you should
From the top of your head
All the way down to your toes

A good guy would sit you down
And rub those feet of yours after a long day
And makes sure his boys know
That they have to go their way
You are his woman
And they can’t get in the way

A good guy would be more than just your man
But your lover your brother your confidant and your best friend
Trust me this guy has passion
And would hate to see you cry
He will hold you in his arms
And wipe those tears dry

You may feel this is a dream
And this can’t be reality
For you can’t find this man
Inside of your society

But he is out there trust me
I know what I mean
Even though everything you see
Doesn’t look good as it seems
Just have faith and wait patiently
God will send him in a dream

The Bottle

I got dressed one evening with a bunch of thoughts in my head
What in the world should I do I was getting very scared
I jumped in the car with the bat by my side
And on the run I went for juice and then off to get high

What should I do and how should I stop these feelings
The more I thought about it
The more I felt like drinking

You can’t imagine all that I am going through
Why I am screwed up in the head
And how therapy won’t do

Why I go to bed every night thinking the
Next morning they will find me dead
By some drug overdose
Or a gunshot to my head

Can you ever dream about what I am going to do?
About the women problems that I am going through
Or how my family can’t get to agreeing
Or all the school work that I have that has me
Up late at night screaming
Not to forget all the bills I have to pay
Tell me why on earth I should ever think that I should stay

Only thing to do now is get drunk by the hour
Hoping that I would fall asleep after I had a nice shower
Or get some ice and go in my room and meditate
And just hope that this night hurries and turns to a new day

But here I am on this road driving
With this bottle to my head without the juice
I already feel like dying
Thinking about who to call to tell them that I love them
But I am on my second 40 now this 151 is how I am living

All of a sudden it happened and then I felt like I had stop breathing
See my vision had gotten blurry and a strong tension I was feeling
As I grasped for breath with glass over my face
I had not seen the red light that I had passed by mistake
And this big truck came out and hit me
Flung me through the windshield like torpedo speeding

Family and friends flashed through my mind
And I couldn’t stop thinking
As my heart beat slower and my body grew weak
Who would have thought that it was time to go sleep
My neck had broken and all of my bones had cracked
If it weren’t for my car they could not identify me
For my face was so smashed
I didn’t mean to drink so much
But what was I to do
When you are in so much pain
There aren’t too many options for you

As I layed down in the road trying looking at my car ahead
I saw that brown bottle rolling past my head
Why did I do it did I really have to drink
But even if I did why didn’t I do it in moderation do you think?
As I glanced at the light a tear ran down my head
And at quarter to twelve I was pronounced DEAD..

Forget You

One of these mornings I am going to wake up
And wonder if your eyes were black or blue
Or even ponder in my head
If I can really live without having you

See I thought that it would be easy
For me to just forget about you
Never remembering your scent
Or a memory of ever dreaming about you

You thought that it would be easy
To just get up and cheat on me
Never once thinking about
What you were really doing to me

The sneaking around you did while you were cheating
Not even thinking if I were really noticing
The way you crept around as if I were dumb
While you did your stuff secretively
Thinking that I had never knew or if I did that I would say
But what difference would it matter to you anyway

See I have fallen to deep or so you thought
That no matter what you did
I would come back crawling like some little child
Begging for you to let me in

The memories of you cheating stuck in my head like a knife
Until felt like I was about to lose my life
I waited too long to deal with the issues
Now somebody’s here passing me a tissue
For I can’t stop all the tears from flowing out my head
I might as well lie in a coffin as if I were dead

All of my words are gone
And I don’t know what to do
My emotions are all running around
Like wild animals in a zoo

All these thoughts are racing about you and I
As I sit here looking up the sky as if I were about to die
But it doesn’t matter anymore and I can’t think of one good reason
To take you back in my life not now or in any other season
Just going to take this one step at a time
And forget that I know you as I speak my last rhyme

CHASE

you deserve her love, treasure it once you have it
instead of thinking about it and all the ways you have to fight it
you are my love , my world, my precious jewel , my fame
your are the only one in this world that i want to call my name
i dreamt of an evening when you let me felt your heart
and from that moment on i knew we could never be apart
i want to be the one who you fall asleep beside
knowing that your safe and you have no reason to hide
for i am here to protect you to be the protector in your life
to to be the one you count on to make sure all things are going right
i will never in my life mistreat you
or even dream of doing you wrong
for i can feel this passion for you burning inside me very strong
when i think of you i feel lucky to have met you all over again
but just hope this time that you wont leave without me becoming that true friend
you are a kind of friend that i really want to get to know
to see if we can have love for each other that can really help us grow
we both on our own have been through times that have been rough
but we both are still living to try again to see if we can find the one to trust
you seem to be a rare one you know the one that is hard to find
the one that i can share my life with and even use a shoulder to cry
by looking in your eyes all i can see is trust
and that smile you have seals the deal and my heart yearns to thrust
i want you to look into my eyes
and see what you mean to me
for i want you to see that i am real and as open as can be
lol i thought that in the beginning that you were just a flirt
but i was still afraid to approach you for i didn't want to get hurt
but now the day has come again and an opportunity once more
to find the courage to ask you what i couldnt ask you before
would you give me the chance to get to know you better
to learn how to love you and and to help your life better
i want to make your heart beat just for me
let be be your peace maker the one that holds the key
i want to make you smile more than anything
and while you do so look in my eyes and see my thoughts racing
i have to try and end this know ing that dreams do come true
but never in this world would i have thought of speaking to you
but now you have disappeared again with no trace of reappearing
or knowing if i one day would ever hear that voice so daring
knowing that i deserved your love and that you were a treasure worth finding...

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

when you love someone

I woke up this morning with a bright smile on my face

I thought I was dreaming but there you were sleeping with such grace

I looked at you beside me and behind me the sun began to rise

And I watched your face shine as a ray of light broke the morning sky

You can’t imagine all of the emotions for you that I am feeling

Got me singing in the shower you know the song sexual healing

I think of you each morning and dream of you each night

When my thoughts begin racing all I think of is you and I

The thought of us being together, and never letting go

Holding on to what we have helping us to grow.

Growing deeper in this love, this love that is so true

Baby I don’t need nobody else, because ALL I NEED IS YOU.

You are my inspiration; to me you are so true.

With a heart so pure as gold that why I chose you.

You've proven yourself to be different because you are so unique in every way.

With you I feel my life is complete and that’s why I am here to stay

You bring joy into my life and wash away all of my sorrows

When I am around u my brain seems ever so hollow.

You make me feel like I am floating on cloud nine

Cause the love I know we share is just so dam divine

The best part of my day when you are not around

Is day dreaming about u

Thinking about what you’re doing and being glad that I am with you

For I can dream ever so far putting our lives in a fantasy

Wondering one day if it really could be that I have you here right next to me

While we carve our names in to the bark of trees

Making love in the shadows ever so passionately

Not giving a care for whoever may see

For the love we share between you and me

Is a constant flow of insanity

Where the numerical expression 1-4-3

Is more than a number towards you and me

And as I sit and write without a fright

Not caring to know who reads this

While I flow on the love I have while I think of u

Knowing full well that the love I have for you is true

I want you to know that I do love you

And these feelings I have will never fall through

For they say in this world that nothing last forever

But I don’t believe that is true

Because the way that I feel when we are together

Is a feeling I want to feel until the end of time

From now until forever

That’s how long my love I will be true

I will make you this vow and promise you now until forever

I will never stop never never ever stop loving you

It’s going to take more than a lifetime

To give u all the love

All the love I feel for u inside

Sometimes the deepest feelings are the ones that are not expressed

The warm and caring feelings for the one whom I adore the best

My love my love for you is far more than words can say

I will love you now and forever until the very last day

Baby I want you to know that I am here to stay.

My love for you is something that won’t get blown away.

Like they say absence makes the heart grow founder.

And the love what we have this relationship will go farther.

Baby my love for you is deeper than any ocean

And wider than any sea

But the love that grows in my heart is a feeling that will be until eternity

SEE A REALTIONSHIP IS BUILT ON MORE THAN JUST TRUST

YOU HAVE TO KNOW HOW TO LISTEN AND WHAT MAKES THE HEART TO THRUST

I CAN RECALL THE FIRST DAY WE MET

YOU SMILED AT ME AND MY HEART SENSED A THREAT

BUT THEN AS I GOT TO KNOW YOU I REALIZED THAT YOU TOUCHED MY HEART

AND FROM THAT MOMENT ON I KNEW WE WOULD NEVER BE APART

THE MORE WE SPOKE WE REALIZED THE MORE WE WERE THE SAME

AND FROM THEN I KNEW THIS WOULD BE THE WOMEN TO SHARE MY LAST NAME

YOU ARE THE CLOSEST THING TO PERFECTION THAT I HAVE EVER CAME ACROSS

YOU COVERED MY HEART SO TIGHT LIKE A ROCK OVERGROWING WITH MOSS

YOU HAVE A HEART THAT IS FULL OF COMPASSION AND A VERY CARING SOUL

THAT FLOURISHES MY HEART LIKE A FLOWER HELPING OUR LOVE TO GROW

YOU ARE MY CONFIDANT AND MY LOVER AND MY VERY BEST FRIEND

WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL IT'S YOU WHO I CHOOSE TO BE WITH TO THE END

AS THE GREAST WRITER SAYS WHO KNOWS WHAT TOMORROW BRINGS

IN A WORLD WHERE FEW HEARTS SURVIVE ALL I KNOW IS THE WAY I FEEL

TRUST ME THIS IS TRUE

BECAUSE RIGHT NOW MY LOVE ALL I WANT TO IS BE WITH U

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

New Beginning

Its a brand new day and oh the joy i am feeling
as i sing Marvin Gaye's song sexual healing
i tend to realize that i can't get you out of my mind
and how the time flied as i watched your smile shine
i keep thinking about how much i enjoyed talking with you
all the jokes we cracked and the tears that were shared
and the joy after the big break through
who could forget that smile of yours that shined so ever bright
like a sun at the touch of dawn bringing you it's morning light
and how much i laughed at that dumb laugh at yours
where ever did you buy it
i have been daydreaming about you off and on all day
replaying pieces of our conversation over and over like a scorched record was playing
i have memorized your face and the way you look at me
it melts my heart every time i think about it
that i often catch myself smiling
imagining what will happen the next time you and i are together
you must be something really special
because i cant remember the last time i have felt so strongly about someone
even though none of us knows what the future holds
i know one thing for sure
you are one of the best things that has happened to me in a very long time
that i cant get you off my mind
wondering about that day we will face
when it will all be over and the pics on everybody's face
wishing it was them that could be so happy
as we are about to take part on our new journey
we have to remember everything happens for a reason
nothing happens by chance not even in a new season
from the day we were born our lives were planned out this way
we just have to hold on strong and get out the devils way
life gets rough as the times go by
but if we hold hands firm
nothing can tear us apart
because we were meant to be
i dont have to tell you anything for you know what i am going to say
but keep sweet my love for we are here to stay

Saturday, August 29, 2009

THE FIRST TIME WE MET

The first time we met i already knewthat there had to be something speacial about you from the glow in your eye to the smile on your faceand the softness of your voice made me yearn for your embracefrom the breath out your mouth as it glided across my facecame your first words to me and gee did i shakeas time went by and the more we spoke i knew i had found a friend where each of us could comprehendall of this felt so new to memade me feel as if i were in a book one of those mysterieswhich then unfolded into a fantastic story or was this all a dream somebody pinch me i think i am about to scream you saw nothing worng with a guy crying in a movieor thought that his poetry was indecent for a guy to be writingyou had me thinkgin about the words of my favorite song late at night when all the world is sleepingi stay up and think of you and i wish on a star that somewhere you are thinking of me toocause i am dreaming of you tonight until tomorrow i will be holding you tight and there is no where in this world i would rather be than here in my room dreaming about you and me.....the day at the beach felt like a retreatfor seeing you took away all of my miseryseeing that smile again touched me in a way that made my heart pump fast again i never thought it could happen again a feeling that consumed me a feeling so powerfula feeling so overwhelminga feeling that made me feel like a man againthe first time we met i saw that beautiful smile that looks like it came down from heavenjust being around makes me feel newas i think about how we can be togetherwhen you sit beside memy heart beats very fast as if its on 10 red bullwhen you walk pass bymy face gets high and i blush like a silly childdreaming about us being together gets my mind light like a feather as i think about what can really happenno ocean in this world could keep us apartto cause us to try to mend a torn heartour relationship would continue to shine as two bright stars on a dark gloomy nightwith us together our thoughts would uniteas we can speak through our eyeswithout even opening our mouthesbut this is all a dream what more can i say other than if you were mine you will never have a bad day for you seem to be one that has a heart of pure goldand with a smile like yours i dont want it to foldwhat impresses me most about you though is the fact of your inner beautyyour thoughts from within causes my head to spin and i cant believe you had it in youpeople in life dont know what they have until they have lost itbut with you in my life you i will cheerish and hold the key to your heart next to minewhat more can i say on this rainy day than to say that i really wish that you were mine..............................

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

JOY

I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE

KNOWING THAT I AM LIVING AS I SOAR FOR LIFES GRACE

I LOOK AT YOU ON THE SIDE OF ME AS THE SUN BEGINS TO RISE

AND WATCH YOU FACE SHINE AS A RAY OF LIGHT BREAKS THE MORNING SKY

BEING AROUND YOU HAS SHOWN ME HOW MUCH LIFE HAS TO OFFER

AND I KNOW THAT I HAVE 2 TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT IN ORDER FOR ME TO PROSPER

SO IN ORDER TO HELP ME BRING JOY INTO MY LIFE

FOR ME TO GO EACH DAY WITHOUT MISERY AND STRIFE

I NEED TO HAVE YOU BY MY SIDE AS MY BACK LIKE A BACK THAT KEEPS ME STRONG

YOU ARE THE ONE I ADORE WHO MAKES LIVING FAR MUCH MORE

THE ONE I GIVE MY HEART TOO WHOM I CALL MY UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

WHEN DAYS ARE GOING BAD FOR ME YOU HELP TO TURN IT AROUND

FOR ONE LOOK INTO THOSE EYES OF YOURS CAST AWAY EVERY FROWN

YOU HAVE BEEN HURT IN YOUR PAST AND I HAVE AN IDEA OF HOW YOU FEEL

I KNOW WHAT IT TAKES TO PLEASE YOU AND HOW TO MAKE YOU SQUEEL

SEE A REALTIONSHIP IS BUILT ON MORE THAN JUST TRUST

YOU HAVE TO KNOW HOW TO LISTEN AND WHAT MAKES THE HEART TO THRUST

I CAN RECALL THE FIRST DAY WE MET

YOU SMILED AT ME AND MY HEART SENSED A THREAT

BUT THEN AS I GOT TO KNOW YOU I REALIZED THAT YOU TOUCHED MY HEART

AND FROM THAT MOMENT ON I KNEW WE WOULD NEVER BE APART

THE MORE WE SPOKE WE REALIZED THE MORE WE WERE THE SAME

AND FROM THEN I KNEW THIS WOULD BE THE WOMEN TO SHARE MY LAST NAME

YOU ARE THE CLOSEST THING TO PERFECTION THAT I HAVE EVER CAME ACROSS

YOU COVERED MY MY HEART SO TIGHT LIKE A ROCK OVERGROWING WITH MOSS

YOU HAVE A HEART THAT IS FULL OF COMPASSION AND A VERY CARING SOUL

THAT FLOURISHES MY HEART LIKE A FLOWER HELPING OUR LOVE TO GROW

YOU ARE MY CONFIDANT AND MY LOVER AND MY VERY BEST FRIEND

WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL IT'S YOU WHO I CHOOSE TO BE WITH TO THE END

AS THE GREAST WRITER SAYS WHO KNOWS WHAT TOMORROW BRINGS

IN A WORLD WHERE FEW HEARTS SURVIVE ALL I KNOW IS THE WAY I FEEL

TRUST ME THIS IS TRUE

BECAUSE RIGHT NOW MY LOVE ALL I WANT TO IS BE WITH U

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

MiSsInG YoU

let me tell you why i miss you
and see if it matters
why my heart yearns for your presence
wishing you were beside me
holding you in my arms so gently
wish you were here for me to kiss you passionately
i know that you are the one for me
wishing i had a knife to carve our names romantically
in my arms to i can feel the pain rush to me
i day dream of you in the day and fall sleep with you on my mind
and wake up in the morning with a smile as if you had slept by my side
when i try to fight this feeling there is nothing that i can do
cause everthing i see or touch
somehow it reminds me of you
but i tend not to worry too much
because i know that whenever you arrive
it will be the last time you ever leave me
because then you will be a bride by my side
i think of all the joy we share
and the good times spent together
just looking in those eyes of yours made me feel as light as a feather
you cannot see my face right now
or even imagine how i feel
that whenever you and i are apart
how emotional am i and know that our love is real
sometime i try to count sheep to make me go to sleep
but then each sheep turns into a memory of you
ones that help put me into a deep sleep
have me feeling as if your behind me breathing on my neck
with your soft hands around my waist
and your hair rubbing on my back
your mouth begins to whisper softly in my ear
telling me that you love me
and how much you really care
i miss you more as if the night had no moon
and the day had no sun
and a flower thats beggining to bloom has no rain to help its growth come
sometimes thinking of you so much
leaves me gasping for air
as if there is no air to breath
or like a thorn stuck in my throat
lol the thought of you being by my side
makes my mind feels as if there is a struggle
everytime i try to say your name all i could do is stutter
because every moment with you is like rain pouring down a gutter
i dont know what to do right now for i am feeling a bit confused
but i know one thing that you are mine
and because of this my heart will never shatter
i miss you

Sunday, July 5, 2009

The Past

it was five year ago or cant you remember
the sweet smelling aroma of rain and whatever
it was raining hard and the breeze blowing rapidly
i saw that smile and couldnt get you off my mind so easily
it took some time and courage to speak to you
but by the time i aproached you i didnt know what to do
you were with your cousin with her soft voice that cant hurt a fly
except for when she wanted to make noise
she introduced us both an told me about you and from that point on
i could't stop thinking of you
as time moved on and the days progressed
it was easy to talk without no stress
i found a common denominator his name was avery
he was like your best friend so it was easy for me
but then i got this tip that you were going through something
with one short little goon who obviously meant nothing
to me of course couldnt i didnt care
with just one glance and the touch of your hair
i got to see that smile from you
made me glad it made me feel knew
then the good news came that you two were not going
i was so rejoiced i felt like jumping
so i tried my hand and to my surprise
you grabbed on to the bait like a little goggle eye
but then again you did it again you left me once more for another little friend
and then it came to me again that now you have desserted from this other little friend
you seem confused and dont know what to do
but i am willing to give you an option so you will have a clue
that i have been here from the very beginning
ready to win your heart and do all of the mending
so you wont have to go through the breaking up again
for i will be more than a lover but a very close friend
the one that you can give your heart to
where i will keep it close to me like the rest should have tried to do
before they failed and hurt your heart
but now we have a very fresh start
with you i can go on and on
talking about you from dusk to dawn
but all i am asking is one lil favor to try me just once like an ice cream flavor
i promise i wont heart your heart
and if you give me a chance you wont ever again have to restart

Desire

It's raining it and i am soaked in it


cant speak my mind because i am choking on it


don't know what to do or even how to say it


cause my heart is on fire with this desire i can't cope it


tell me what to do or what should i say


should i mend a torn heart and reach for a brighter day


or sit back and groan and listen to some sad song


as michael would sing it why won't you leave me alone


these feeling i mean i can't get rid of it


but hold on exceuse me let me tell you how i am feeling it


to let you feel my hearts desire as it screams how badly it wants your touch


for me to hold you in my arms while my heart begins to thrust once more


while i feel for your touch


that makes my heart shiver like a earthquake when it rips open the ground


trust me my queen i want you to wear my crown forever and ever as this love continues to grow


It felt so hard and no matter how hard I tried
It seemed as if I would have forever been burning up inside


i yearn for you to be with me


as i hold you in my arms ever so gently


and kiss you ever so passionatly


as i want you to look in my arms with those gleaming eyes


and let me read your thoughts as my hands wear your body down


and i dont ever wan t to see you with a frown


i want to mak e love to you until our hearts explode


as i reach out once more for you to hold

to look once more into your eyes

and whisper your name as we approach quiet times

this deisre for you will be too strong to deny

my desire for you is like a ball of fire

thats burning my soul as my love for you grows higher and higher

as if i am climbing up to a mountain top

but this is something that i dont want come to an end

these feelings i have for you comes from deep within

and my hearts desire will burn from here on end

Monday, January 26, 2009

BLISS

His hand upon her cheek,Her hand upon his face,His fingertips against her back,She leans in for his embrace.Endless kisses,Fulfilled wishes,Tongue slips in somehow,Love or lust?Unsure yet they allow.Gently tossed on to the bed,Laid down with so much emotion,Becoming one with such explosion.Flesh infused with flesh,Eyes closed tight,With quickened breaths,Gentle nibbles,And soft bites.In and out,Back and forth,Opened mouth,Eyes rolled back.He groans,She cries,He moans,She screams.Faster the motion,The louder the commotion,Sudden rush of blood.Coming to a higher note,Reaching their high point,Thighs opened,Shell broken,Whispers spoken.The aftermath,Fall asleep next to each other,Dampened in one another’s sweat,Trying to catch their breathsMemories of his hand against her breast.Breathing slows down,Heart beating normally,Naked bodies wrapped up in sheets.Cuddling closer to each other,Warm bodies entangled in one another.A fantasy,Or just plain bliss?

The Consumption

The thought of you consumes me can't get you out of my mind easily maybe I’m just a guy who's needy, but your loves the soul food that feeds me every moment I imagine how it would be to hold you in my arms so gently and watch you fall asleep so tenderly kiss you on your forehead so passionately you are the only one for me and everyday I dream about you sometimes even miserably because I don’t get to hear from you no more often its like our love just disappeared in a coffin all I could feel is the ashes and dust coming from my heart because I know it no more thrust, thinking of your love and what it means to me, dreaming about you ever so passionately I want to be involved with you romantically carving our names in the bark of trees my heart has been locked but somehow you hold the key to having my heart and soul completely why do you think love is represented as a trinity it is not just the foundation of Christianity but the building blocks of a family where God, man and woman are three It's the relationship that sets our hearts free now we understand the meaning of living independently because there is no you without considering me and without God in the center we would not be so now I choose to love you unequivolently with your bad habits and destructive tendencies even if on the smallest tasks we don’t agree I am committed to our personal growth as individuals fully baby I'm not perfect, so if I do something you think is uncharacteristic and silly don’t hesitate to take a moment to express your feelings to me and if I listen don’t take my reaction personally I’m just experiencing a moment of temporary insanity cause when its all said and done what are u to me is more than words or numerical descriptions 1-4-3 if I were immortal and could live for eternity I would want nothing more in this world to have you here with me. It feels like years since we have been a part but it’s only been a week that’s caused a torn heart I guess that’s where trust comes in to play and even though I may not get to hear from you each and every day. I want you to know that I am here to stay. To love you now and forever until the very last day. Like they say absence makes the heart grow founder. And the love what we have this relationship will go farther. Baby my love for you is deeper than any ocean wider than any sea but the love that grows in my heart is a feeling that will be until eternity

How I am Feeling

If you were to allow me to show u how 2 be loved then you would have no reason to cry but if u do my shoulder is always here 4 u. I think of you each morning And dream of you each night When my thoughts begin racing, I think of you and I. The thought of us being together, and never letting go holding on to what we have helping us to grow. Growing deeper in this love, this love that is so true don’t need nobody else, because ALL I NEED IS YOU. You are my inspiration; to me you are so true. With a heart so pure as gold that why I chose you. You've proven yourself to be different because you are so unique special in everyway. With you I feel my life is complete. you bring joy into my life and wash away all the sorrows when I am around u my brain seems oh so hollow. you make me feel like I am floating on cloud ninec ause the love I know we share is just so oh dam divine the best part of my day when you are not around is day dreaming about u for I can dream ever so far putting our lives in a fantasy wondering one day if it really could be that I have you here right next to me while we carve our names in to the bark of trees making love in the shadows ever so passionately not giving a care for whoever may see for the love we share between you and me is a constant flow of insanity where the numerical expression 1-4-3 is more than a number towards you and me and as I sit and write without a fright not caring to know who reads this while I flow on the love I have while I think of u knowing full well that the love I have for you is true I want you to know that I do love you and these feelings I have will never fall throughfor they say in this world that nothing last foreverbut I don’t believe that is true because the way that I feel when we are togetheris a feeling I want to feeluntil the end of time from now until foreverthat’s how long my love I will be trueI will make you this vowand promise you now until forever I will never stopnever never ever stop loving you its going to take more than a lifetime to give u all the loveall the love I feel for u insidesometimes the deepest feelings are the ones that are not expressed the warm and caring feelings for the one whom I adore the bestmy love my love for you is far more than words can say I will love you now and forever until the very last day